I've decided to start a stream of consciousness blog for July. I'm almost done with my master's thesis. My roommates are out of town. I'm moving to Austin in a month to start my
Ph.D. program. It's a liminal time and I'll have more time alone than I have in a while. Time to write.
I think my thoughts will be worth recording over the next month. For one thing, I quit taking my meds. Just a sec, I want a cigarette.
Ok, so I'm not totally quitting my meds. That could be dangerous. But I'm weaning myself off the
Cymbalta. I never wanted to be on it in the first place, but if I quit taking it suddenly I get really moody. I figure having my roommates out of town is a time I might be able to deal with it and the other withdrawal effects (muscle spasms, fucked-up sleep, etc.). I will still take
Ativan* as needed to deal with anxiety, which is what I started taking meds for in the first place.
I'm bored with this. I'm gonna go smoke and read.
mm
np:
The Beatles,
Mindless Self Indulgence,
Becknr:
House of Leaves
*Yes, I know Ativan is pretty addictive. I have already weaned myself down on that, though in the past few days it's been more common...fuck it, one thing at a time.